Thursday, January 12, 2017

When You're just too sick....

On days I'm just too sick to get off the couch, I cuddle with my kitties. They say animals are good to lower blood pressure. Good to help with illness in general. Rain is pouring outside and my outdoor kitties are protected in their own little crates on the front porch. Warm, clean blankets inside. But inside Rascal and Bitty always know when I'm too sick to move. They always curl up near or on top of me. I'm amazed at how they just know on bad days.

So when you're too sick to get off the couch, I hope you have some animal love to encourage you.

Yo yo Up!

The crazy weather is turning to the 60's, back down and up again! I can honestly say this weather is killing me! Everytime the pressure changes the pain increases. One day I awoke to a swollen right leg and foot. Barely able to balance on nerve dead totally numb feet (which is every day). So I pulled myself along the wall and cried the pain away.

The cold did damage to my heating bill. Yikes!!  Thank goodness for cat body heat!! So I will put off filling a couple of prescriptions until next month. Freeze or medicine. Bad choice either way. Cost of meds went up again. Fifteen bottles get expensive.

My birthday is January 20th. Born the day JFK was sworn into office. Glad to see a new person in office that day.

Many memories co email this month. My Mama died January 18, 1985. Two days before my 34th birthday. Her birthday is January 25th. Sadness has been a shadow over January for a long time.

Rain send to have settled in for at least two weeks. Enduring the pain will be tricky. Hoping the next Benlysta infusion will help with the pain. One day at a time.

Friday, January 6, 2017

A January Day

January showed its presence yesterday. Snow falling, temperatures dropping, single digits tonight. We really didn't get much accumulation. Maybe an inch. Still icy. Was a slip sliding experience to take out the trash awhile ago.

The place where I live is bitter cold. Block walls hold in the cold unless the heat runs nonstop. So I dress in layers now. Two heated throws wrap around Bitty and Rascal to keep them warm.

It is just bitter cold. With this crazy weather pattern I know it will warm up in a few days. Trouble is it dives from 60's to teens in a day or so. HARD on anyone with a systemic illness. I woke up this morning with so much pain. My body is still stiff and sore as if I lifted weights. Cause? Drop of temperature. Can't close my right hand because the joints are so swollen.

So not much gets accomplished here when the cold sets in. If I can accomplish one thing a day, I've succeeded.

Today I'd like to be home in Alabama.

Saturday, December 31, 2016

Happy New Year

New year's Eve is just another day to me. Personally I am thankful to see 2016 go out the door! Feel hopefully for 2017 bringing anew President. Good riddance Obama!

Raining here with chilly weather. Didn't sleep well last night because of this wacky roller coaster weather. Ready for snow. Doesn't hurt as bad when it snows, but rain kills me!

Thankful or to have a doctor's appointment for a few weeks. Benlysta one week and then doctor. A reprieve from what has become my life.

Sunday, December 25, 2016


Today I long to go home. But for me there is no home to go home to. Christmas is the hardest day of the year for those of us who are alone in the world. Death of loved ones takes a hard toll.

I've been sick for two days. Crazy weather pattern caused a flare. This will be another Christmas spent in bed.

Saturday, December 24, 2016


Last night I watched a movie I hadn't seen before. It was called "Christmas Oranges." Was about an orphan being passed off to another orphanage at Christmas. The owner's brother brought the children oranges every Christmas. Reminded me of my Daddy. Every Christmas from the time I can remember every Christmas my Daddy walked in the door arms loaded with nuts, tangerines, oranges and chocolate drops (for Mama). The older I got, I just thought it odd that this was his choice of Christmas gifts to us. Being a child I just didn't understand.  After all Christmas was for toys and gifts.

Watching that movie last night reminded me of him. I finally understood why it was so important for him to bring his gifts to the table.

My Daddy grew up in a large family during the Depression. They had nothing. Just receiving an orange was a big deal and grateful gift. For him to give us so much more was giving a bounty, overflowing abundance. I'm sorry, Daddy, I get it now.

He's been gone twenty Christmases this year. I miss him more than ever this year. I can no longer eat nuts because they make me sick, but I'd be so thankful for one of his oranges.

Please remember this Christmas Eve not everyone has family. The world has taken a celebration of the birth of Jesus and made it into a family affair. That's fine and dandy for those who have family. But so many of us are alone and this time of year magnifies the loss. If you know someone alone, take time to care.

Wednesday, December 21, 2016