Friday, October 23, 2015

What a Week!

What a week! It seems that anything and everything happened. If it is going to happen, it will happen to me.

Early this morning while returning from the bathroom, I rammed my left foot into a wooden stool. Swollen and bruised, it felt broken on one side. Was able to slide on a sandal today. Glad it wasn't cold (even though I wish it were cooler).

My internet went out three days ago. I never realized how much I depend on the outside contact from the net. Every day I called to check on what was going on. First was given the message that they upgraded their system and an outage occurred. Fine. Next day same story but would be on by 7:00 p.m. Next day same story. I called and asked for a credit for the days I was without service. I also called Time Warner to switch to them. No excuse, Windstream. I'll be saving around $25. Good comes out of a bad situation. 

Then my regular doctor's appointment in Wilmore. Informed him about my rheumatologist experience. Next thing I know they send in a nurse to be my go between with the rheumatologist. She called her, they called me, she called me back. Keep in mind I never asked for any of it.

I was told I HAD to have a rheumatologist due to the nature of my systemic lupus. Fine, I told them to find me another one. They encouraged me to keep the one I had - the one who dismissed me because she didn't think she could do any better for me. Who would trust a doctor like this?!?!

So today I started searching online for another rheumatologist. The other doctor's office said they would be glad to refer me to another one once I found them. I have never ever experienced such things! My doctors back in Alabama would send me to other doctors, but they called and scheduled the appointment. Here I've had to do all the work. Ridiculous.

So it has been stressful and this evening a flare showed up. Fever started spiking. My joints were so swollen I could barely hold a glass or walk across the floor. Headaches so bad I couldn't even rest my head on the pillow.

Some days I wish I could wake up at home, in the country, smelling my mama's cooking, feeling the ahhhh you can only feel when you walk inside the door of your home. I miss it. I miss them.

Thursday, October 15, 2015

Fall Ya'll

So glad the temperature has caught up with the month. Nothing better than the cool air. So crisp and clean. Personally hope this is the end of the flea season as summer has been horrible with fleas. I've had to buy flea pills and other treatments to get rid of them. They are expensive and I've had to choose between flea pills and my meds. So if I had a Christmas wish this year, it would be for a big supply of Capstar flea pills for cats. My little escapee ran outside three times this summer and brought in the bugs. I've sprayed the carpet, vacuumed every day, and still fighting these buggers. I gave the last capstar pill to her this morning and she's going nuts with the fleas biting. Will they ever end????

Added to the list of questions I have to ask God when I get to Heaven: What was the purpose of a flea?!?!

Last week was the week of bad things happening. One of the worst was when I picked up Rascal to move him and he stuck his claws in my face. Missed my eye by 14th of an inch. Doctored it at home and the swelling it going down.

Quite frankly some days I'd rather just stay in bed with the covers over my head.  Somedays it would be best.

With the drop in temperatures comes the pain. Went for a blood test yesterday. I could barely hold my cane. My wrist.feels broken even though it is not. Breathing issues have set in with the colder air. I dread this winter.

Saturday, October 10, 2015

Time for Truth

I just spent time on a website defending my beliefs as a Christian. Majority of those who tried to devour me were atheists. I learned two important lessons today: 1. "Fools are fools and you can't argue with them. A fool takes no pleasure in understanding, but only in expressing his opinion." Proverbs 18:2.
Proverbs 1:7 says, "The fear of the Lord is the beginning of knowledge; fools despise wisdom and instruction." Proverbs 17:28 says, "Even a fool who keeps silent is considered wise; when he closes his lips, he is deemed intelligent." Proverbs 23:9 says, "Do not speak in the hearing of a fool, for he will despise the good sense of your words."  There are more at this link if you want to read them:

I realized I was a fool for putting up with their anger and condemnation. I am amazed at how stupid some comments can be. So I stated the truth and left.  I also left with several new names for my prayer list.

2. God can take any situation and turn it around. Romans 8:28 says, "And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose." He can sift through the muck and make truth shine bright in a dark world. I'm thankful He does this for me every day. I may be a broken vessel, but light shines through the cracks!

Before you say, "This is a blog about lupus, not God," let me remind you of something. THIS IS MY BLOG. I can say and share anything I want on here. My life belongs to Him. I could not get through a day without His mercy, grace, and love. 

After spending time "listening" to so many who are living under lies, I decided this entry would be one of truth. 

16"For God so loved the world, that He gave His only begotten Son, that whoever believes in Him shall not perish, but have eternal life. 17"For God did not send the Son into the world to judge the world, but that the world might be saved through Him.… John 3:16:17

Here are more truths on salvation:

God gives you choices. We make them every day. One of the most important choices is to accept Jesus as savior or walk away. Every choice has consequences. You have to make that decision for no one else can do it for you. He gave a most precious gift. 

"“I am the Alpha and the Omega,” says the Lord God, “who is and who was and who is to come, the Almighty.”Rev. 1:8.  "Thus says the Lord, the King of Israel and his Redeemer, the Lord of hosts: “I am the first and I am the last; besides me there is no god." Isaiah 44:6.

More here:

He is real. He is living. This world is soon to realize how true this is. Read Revelations and Daniel.

“Enter by the narrow gate. For the gate is wide and the way is easy that leads to destruction, and those who enter by it are many. For the gate is narrow and the way is hard that leads to life, and those who find it are few.  Matthew 7:13-14

I learned that this world is filled with proverbial fools simply by the definition held there. By sharing my beliefs, straight from God's word, I was condemned as a name caller, a child who believed fairy tales, etc. etc. etc. The fact remains that I know who God is, I believe in His word and will praise Him always. I know where I am going. Do you?

Since the beginning of the world and creation of man, this world has been part of a war between God and Satan. We fight it every day. I will simply never understand how someone can turn to evil. I have read the final chapter and he loses and drags with him a great number of mankind. "In their case the god of this world has blinded the minds of the unbelievers, to keep them from seeing the light of the gospel of the glory of Christ, who is the image of God." 2 Corinthians 4:4. Satan is a liar. I don't know about you, but I plan on following the truth. 

Praise God for His mercy, grace and love! 


The cross has been on top of the water tower (which sits on Asbury University campus -  a Christian campus) since 1976. I always found peace as a student as it reminded me WHO was in charge. I knew I was "home." I love this school and what it stands for. If you take down the cross, it won't make a difference in the faith of Christians. So why are people so angry? Another attack by the liar of all liars.

Tuesday, October 6, 2015

Just Wishing

Today I want to go home. Miracle where are you?