Sunday, January 29, 2017

My Heart Is Destroyed!!

My best friend in all the world died this morning. Rascal was 17 yrs old, but so healthy. No sign of what was to come. I went into the kitchen to get something and when I went back to my room, he was gone. Just that fast. He took half of my heart with him. Was two hours before my next door neighbor could bury him. So I sat with him, wrapped him in a blanket and petted him. He was loving on me just a few hours ago. Walking all over me while I tried to sleep. Typical behavior. 

Rascal ran through my door when he was about three months old. It was a very hot day in Alabama and he was searching for shelter and water. Immediately he was my baby. He's been the one soul I could tell all my troubles to, has seen me through so much loss, has been my faithful and true friend. He wasn't a pet. Rascal was part of my heart. 

I am so devastated. And I officially hate the month of January. Anniversary of my mama's death, her birthday, my birthday, and now Rascal's death. If I could cut it out of the calendar and skip it altogether I would. 

I love you my dear friend. Always.

Friday, January 27, 2017


This is a hard month for me. Anniversaries of my mama's death, her birthday and my birthday. Thankful this month is almost over. Then I wonder why it goes by so fast. 

My best friend was here for almost a week for my birthday. We hit a lot of Half Price Bookstores, some thrift, saw "Fantastic Beasts and Where to Find Them," ate birthday cake and dinner and rode a dinner train. Worn out. They day she left I went to bed and slept. Still worn out. It was warmer during her time here and now the cold temperatures have set in again. My hands are frozen as I sit here writing. Snow flurries fell today. We're suppose to have some sticking snow on Sunday. Time will tell.

The RJ Corman Dinner train (My Old KY Dinner Train) was wonderful. Beautifully set tables inside a 1940's car. Traveled a strip of tracks that belong to them. Saw different historic markers along the way like Jesse James safe house, wooden trestle that survived the War Between the States, a train depot where "Stripes" was filmed, etc. Here's the link that tells all about it:

A list of Historic Points: 

So thankful to have been able to experience this. Have always wanted to ride a train. 

Spent the night away from home. The room had a jacuzzi tub in the bathroom. Was so tall I thought I wouldn't be able to get in. The next morning I sat on the side, pulled both legs over and lowered into the tub. Was the best bath I ever had! The heat and jets released all the pain in my body if only for a short time. The tub had grooves cut into the side so that I could hold on and pull up. If I ever win publisher's clearing house, I'm getting a jacuzzi!


While I was outside feeding the kitties late yesterday, three cop cars arrived at the drug house two doors down, body armour on, rifles drawn. Ambulance showed up and left after ten minutes, but the cops stayed over an hour. Of course they left without anyone to arrest. I will never understand this. WHY? While taking out trash, I heard them talking at the end of the driveway saying they could have arrested both of them for the bruises and cuts on them. Then why not?!?! So sick of these people. 

Thursday, January 12, 2017

When You're just too sick....

On days I'm just too sick to get off the couch, I cuddle with my kitties. They say animals are good to lower blood pressure. Good to help with illness in general. Rain is pouring outside and my outdoor kitties are protected in their own little crates on the front porch. Warm, clean blankets inside. But inside Rascal and Bitty always know when I'm too sick to move. They always curl up near or on top of me. I'm amazed at how they just know on bad days.

So when you're too sick to get off the couch, I hope you have some animal love to encourage you.

Yo yo Up!

The crazy weather is turning to the 60's, back down and up again! I can honestly say this weather is killing me! Everytime the pressure changes the pain increases. One day I awoke to a swollen right leg and foot. Barely able to balance on nerve dead totally numb feet (which is every day). So I pulled myself along the wall and cried the pain away.

The cold did damage to my heating bill. Yikes!!  Thank goodness for cat body heat!! So I will put off filling a couple of prescriptions until next month. Freeze or medicine. Bad choice either way. Cost of meds went up again. Fifteen bottles get expensive.

My birthday is January 20th. Born the day JFK was sworn into office. Glad to see a new person in office that day.

Many memories co email this month. My Mama died January 18, 1985. Two days before my 34th birthday. Her birthday is January 25th. Sadness has been a shadow over January for a long time.

Rain send to have settled in for at least two weeks. Enduring the pain will be tricky. Hoping the next Benlysta infusion will help with the pain. One day at a time.

Friday, January 6, 2017

A January Day

January showed its presence yesterday. Snow falling, temperatures dropping, single digits tonight. We really didn't get much accumulation. Maybe an inch. Still icy. Was a slip sliding experience to take out the trash awhile ago.

The place where I live is bitter cold. Block walls hold in the cold unless the heat runs nonstop. So I dress in layers now. Two heated throws wrap around Bitty and Rascal to keep them warm.

It is just bitter cold. With this crazy weather pattern I know it will warm up in a few days. Trouble is it dives from 60's to teens in a day or so. HARD on anyone with a systemic illness. I woke up this morning with so much pain. My body is still stiff and sore as if I lifted weights. Cause? Drop of temperature. Can't close my right hand because the joints are so swollen.

So not much gets accomplished here when the cold sets in. If I can accomplish one thing a day, I've succeeded.

Today I'd like to be home in Alabama.